Wednesday, March 5, 2014

my journey back to vintage

Some of you may have noticed that I don't post outfit pictures anymore.  And, today I want to come clean.  For the last year or more I have lost my battle with staying in shape and along with it went my ability to wear a vast majority of what hangs in my closet.

I've never been a twig; I have always had curves.  I was very active in high school -- being on the dance team kept me in shape and allowed me to eat pretty much whatever I wanted.  But like so many women, after high school it was hard for me to stay that thin.  

For most of my adult life, my weight has yo-yoed and for a while I was very comfortable with where I was at.  That's when I started this blog and began my journey on becoming who I always knew I was: a vintage loving girl trapped in the 21st century.  I had always had a passion for vintage fashion and the styles of the 1940s & 1950s, but lacked the courage and confidence in myself to wear more than a coat, purse, or piece of jewelry.  When I finally decided to shed this insecurity, a whole new world opened up to me, one I instantly loved and knew would be with me for the rest of my life.

For the last year I have dreaded getting dressed, going out, and was just overall unhappy with where my body was.  I had lost the ability to outwardly express who I was on the inside and was on the fast track to becoming someone who lived in comfy clothes.  

Nine weeks ago that all changed.  I decided that I no longer wanted to live a life of unhappiness due to a part of my physical appearance that I could actually control: my weight.  After having success on the program before, I decided to join Weight Watchers to help me reach my goal and so far, I am really enjoying the results.  I have a long way to go, but I am so glad I am on my way.

While I have had this post in the works for some time, I haven't felt quite ready until now to share it.  Admitting to myself (and others) that food is very much like a drug for me has been a huge step forward in my "recovery."  And I can't tell you how excited and motivated I am to be able to get back into all my pretty dresses.  Vintage will always be apart of who I am and I am so thrilled that I am back on the road to it.


Frocks and Frivolities said...

This is a great post, it is so important that we as women learn to love and accept our bodies, that does not mean that we don't work to present our best selves, but that we learn to love our best selves. I am tired of body shaming advertisements and negative body talk. It damages all women. There is not one type of beauty. The world is beautiful because it holds so many different types of beauty in it.

Holly Brolsma-Colon said...

I am in the same boat, dear girl! After some events in the middle of last year caused me to balloon up, I am now trying to shed some weight. And my goodness it's hard! But I really want to be able to wear the lovely dresses I have again and to feel confident in myself. It is much harder than I thought, but I am still working at it. I applaud you for your candor - you are certainly an inspiration!


Veronica Vintage

Welcome to DeluxeVille said...

I'm right there with you too!! Before I married I was at such a happy place both physically, emotionally, and mentally! Now I am also having to struggle to get back into my vintage dresses I loved wearing so much. It happens, I'll try not to beat myself up to bad right now...perhaps my new life will encourage me to get active again and watch what I eat again! You encourage me!

Ps...Thanks for the small :( boo...but hey maybe by next Fall it won't be! Thanks for the earrings too!

Jennifer said...

You are definitely not alone :) I have struggled for so long, I kind of gave up. I'm a pretty active gal, but even so I've never been thin. My mom recently found out she has diabetes and she s not even overweight.... so now it has lit a little fire under my butt to get healthy. I am hoping this is my year :)

Sean MacKenzie said...

I have done WW's before with great success and after finding out I'm a celiac, have had to re-figure out how WW's coincides in points with g-free stuff. We also invested in a pricey piece of equipment that really is so good for exercise. I feel good during and after exercise. I wish you all the luck in reaching your goal and will be a cheer you on all the way.